Traces Between Sunrises

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The city greeted me before I learned its rhythm,
a quiet woman on the shore, 
stepping out of the soft morning light
to show me a picture of myself
watching the sunrise I came to find.
It felt like Da Nang saw me
before I learned to see it properly—
as if the sky introduced us
and she simply delivered the message.

Later, a stranger from Ecuador fell into step beside me,
a wandering soul with too much curiosity
and not enough roots.
We walked until the day cracked open into night—
past streets humming with motorbikes,
past boats in the docks,
ending the night lying on the sand, watching the stars
scatter themselves above us,
pretending the evening meant something.

The next day he rent a motorbike, 
even though he never ride one before, 
followed me to another city,
and let the wind decide our direction.
But adventure has a way of revealing intentions,
and eventually I learned 
he was only borrowing moments,
not offering any of his own.
Not every story is worth a second chapter.

There was a girl after that—
soft-spoken, easy smile,
who led me into a café hidden in the city 
surrounded by unexpected greenery
like it belonged to another world.
The place served nothing but drinks,
yet it offered peace I didn’t realize I needed.
The forest drank the silence for us,
and I found myself immersed in deep and fun conversations,
in ways that felt unplanned,
like a new friendship taking root
without asking for permission.

Marble Mountains gave me another surprise—
a man who said he wasn’t Filipino,
but slipped when he compared Bana Hills
to Enchanted Kingdom.
I laughed because familiarity always betrays us.
He laughed too, relieved to be found.

That night, I met a woman
whose presence filled the room
as if she held her life together
with force and fire.
Kind, but sharp-edged—
the sort of soul who makes you 
aware of your own softness, 
aware of every part of yourself.
I spent the night in her orbit,
wondering how many versions of me
I was shedding in this city.

Bana Hills came with heavy rain—
the kind that blurs everything
you hoped to see.
I changed my plans
to escape a storm
and still ended up inside one.
Most places were closed,
the wind too wild,
the sky too heavy.
I didn’t get to see it all, 
But maybe some experiences 
are meant to remain unfinished.

Somewhere between 
the fog and the cable cars,
I crossed paths with two warm strangers 
from far away—
quick stories, shared wonder,
easy laughter, 
a brief kindness before we drifted off 
in different directions.
And then came a familiar accent from home,
someone whose interest lingered 
past the mountains and the mist,
reaching out even after I flew home.


And then—
the beach again,
as if circling back
to where the story began.
A foreigner beside me,
both of us wanting the sky—
paragliding, jet ski, anything that felt like flight.
They wouldn’t let me go alone,
said the wind is too strong that day.
He asked if we could go together,
offered to pay for everything
just to share the moment.
Kindness from a stranger
took me by surprise
in a place I thought I was learning
on my own terms.

Vietnam held me gently,
then wildly,
then honestly—
with people who entered for a moment,
people who stayed a little longer,
and people who didn’t know
they would mark me at all.
I came there searching
for a break in my routine,
for space to breathe.
Instead I found pieces of myself
scattered across a coastline
that kept pulling me back—
to its sunrise,
to its stories,
to the way it reminded me
that even alone,
I was never truly unseen.

Embracing the Storm

There were days
when I believed
the rain had chosen me.

It found every crack I tried to hide,
filled every promise left unkept,
until hope became
another thing washed away.

I stood still,
watching the waters swallow
everything in sight.

I waited for the sky to change,
for someone to throw a rope,
for the storm to remember
that I was still there.

But the rain kept falling.

The flood knew my fears by name.

It whispered that I was too small.
that the current was too strong,
that the dreams were meant
for calmer waters.

For a while,
I believed it.

Then I looked
at my own reflection
blurred by muddy water.

I realized
I had been waiting
for the flood to spare me,
when all along
it was asking me to endure.

Even if I don’t know to swim,
I’ll learn before I surrender.

I’ll swallow fear
before I swallow defeat.

I’ll fight every current
that tells me to let go.

Because the shore
was never promised
it is something
I must keep reaching for.

So let the waters rise.
Let the storms return.
Let every wave
test the weight of my resolve.

I may stumble.
I may drift.
I may lose sight of the horizon.

But as long as I choose
to rise one more time,
the floods won’t make me drown.

Before the World Wakes

Before the world remembers my name,
before morning fills the room

with its familiar noise,
before I reach for the things

that promise certainty

but rarely offer peace,
I want to remember You.

Not because You have gone anywhere,
but because

I am the one

who forgets.

Some mornings arrive quietly,

like light slipping through a curtain,

asking for nothing.

Others carry an invisible weight,

as though the day has already decided

how it will unfold

before I have taken my first breath.

Yet You remain unchanged.
Waiting,

not at the end of my failures,

nor at the edge of my victories,
but here –
in the stillness

that exists before every beginning.

I have spent so much of my life

trying to outrun uncertainty,
trying to gather enough answers

to quiet every question,
only to discover

that peace has never lived

where certainty does.

It has always been here,
in this quiet conversation

between Your heart

and mine.

You know the paths

I cannot yet see.
You know the seasons

I have not yet entered.
You know the prayers

that have never found words,
and still,

You listen.

Sometimes I wonder

how many mornings

I have walked past grace

without noticing

that it was already waiting for me,
resting softly

on the leaves,
hidden inside the wind,
settling gently

with the first light.

Perhaps grace

has always arrived this way—
never demanding attention,
never asking to be understood,
only asking

to be received.

Teach me

to move through the day

without the need

to control every outcome.

Teach me

that peace is not found

at the end of the journey,
but in the quiet decision

to take the next step

while Your hand

remains unseen.

If joy finds me,

let it make me more grateful.
If silence finds me,

let it draw me closer to you.
If the road bends

where I expected it

to continue straight,
remind me

that the river never apologize

for following the shape

of the land.

And perhaps

that is faith—
not always knowing

where the path will lead,
but believing

that the One

who imagined the sunrise
has already walked ahead

to welcome me there.

So before the world

asks anything of me,
before I become

everything I believe

I should to be,

let me stay here

for just a little longer,
where morning

is still learning

how to turn into light,
and the only thing

I need to carry
is the quiet certainty

that no matter where 

this day may lead,
I will never arrive
without finding

You


already there.

Even the Moon Disappears

The world will tell you
to run faster,
shine brighter,
prove your worth
in hours and outcomes.

But you know better.

You know
that some of the most beautiful things
grow in silence—
roots in the dark,
stars in the unseen corners
of night.

You’ve walked through days
that asked too much,
carried weight without complaint,
and still offered kindness
to those who never noticed.
That matters.
Even if no one claps for it.
Especially then.

So rest,
not as surrender,
but as ritual.
Breathe like trees do—
slow, grounded,
rooted in place yet always alive.
Let stillness rebuild
what the noise has taken.

You were never meant
to be a constant fire.
Even the moon disappears
and still returns,
again and again—
unchanged in its right to rest.
Its worth not dimmed
by its distance.
Its quiet phases
no less beautiful.

And you—
you, too, are allowed
to step back,
to become small for a moment,
to turn inward,
to choose stillness
over spectacle,
presence over performance.

Let this be your reminder:
You are not behind.
You are not broken.
You are not required
to become something else
to be worthy of love,
of breath,
of this exact moment.

The path you walk
doesn’t have to impress anyone.
It only needs to hold you.
And it does.
Even when your pace slows.
Even when you pause.

You already know.
But I’ll say it again,
for the days you forget—
you are enough
even here,
especially here.

No is a Full Sentence

No.

Not harsh.
Not angry.
Just honest.

Simply No.

There was a time
when saying yes felt like love,
like being helpful
meant being good,
meant right,
was a purpose.

But I’ve learned the cost.
People take.
They test how far kindness stretches.
They assume availability
means agreement.

I’ve been there,
saying yes when I was tired,
agreeing when my gut said no,
showing up when no one
ever showed up for me.
And I’ve had enough.

Not every ask deserves a yes.
Not every hand reaching out
has good intentions.
Some just want access,
to what I give,
to what I offer,
to what they don’t return.

So now, I say no.

No is how I protect myself.
No is how I reclaim
peace
time
energy
and the values I refuse to trade
for anyone’s comfort.

I don’t owe an explanation.
Not everyone gets a reason.
Because the ones who push
won’t hear it anyway.

If no isn’t enough for them,
no explanation ever will be.

I’m done over explaining
just to be understood
by people who never tried
to understand me in the first place.

No isn’t a wall.
It’s a choice.
It’s me stepping away
from what drains
and returning to what grounds.

It’s not rejection.
It’s self-respect.
So when I say no,
I mean it.
Not because I’m unkind,
but because I finally know
I don’t have to earn my worth
by being available.

No is a full sentence.
And I’m done adding footnotes.

The Way He Loved 

Some loves are jagged,
not because they are meant to be,
but because they were fighting shadows
even we couldn’t see. 

There were nights
when the world tilted,
and I watched him lose himself
in a glass he promised he wouldn’t touch.
We broke in places I never spoke aloud. 

But I remember other nights too,
like when fever had me buried in sweat,
and he stayed by my side,
pressing cool towels to my skin
with hands that smelled of cigarettes
and worry. 

He didn’t say much.
He rarely did.
But his silence held things
I only understood later. 

Like how he’d prepare our meals every day, 
making sure we ate on time. 
Or how he patched the old fan again and again,
because he knew I hated the heat. 

He failed, yes, 
he stumbled more than once.
But what matters now
is that he tried. 

And that trying,
clumsy, fractured, incomplete,
was still love. 

I hold those memories,
not to rewrite the pain,
but to remind myself
that even damaged hearts
can choose to care. 

So when the ache rises,
when the past knocks hard, 
I open the door to that single image:
him by my bedside,
barely awake,
whispering, “you’ll be okay.” 

And somehow, I am. 

Because sometimes,
the smallest kindness
survives the loudest pain.
It lingers,
not to erase what hurt,
but to remind me
that he loved me
the best way he knew how.